Writing

  • Diamond Princess

    Tess Ashton 13 February 2019

    Diamond Princess
    1
    get stardust in my eyes
    during worship
    I’m cruising 
    on a winsome sea
    no land or others
    just a breezy forever 
    the wind’s got
    the boat’s white sail 
    full throttle
    Jesus is near
    With words of cool spirit fire
    says
    ‘Look only to me
    not left or right
    keep your eyes on me 
    alone’
    2
    We’re heading to a sunset
    shooting 
    cosmic light 
    ten thousand streams of happiness
    not far from the swing 
    of the foam
    
    one dawn or two later 
    songs by the ‘electric light orchestra’
    tune in 
    I rise and play
    ‘strange magic’ 
    ‘telephone line’
    and ‘twilight’ 
    on you-tube
    several times
    
    the words
    of the songs
    calling 
    to a space
    between earth and heaven
    like the place between the
    boat and home
    3
    in spring
    my sister phones
    ‘come on a cruise to Japan
    my shout 
    we’ll board the diamond princess 
    at Taipei‘
    
    soon our soft-as-cloud beds 
    swing light as coracles
    swept up in the swish 
    of the waves
    
    the dance of the steward
    seems almost anointed
    beds smoothed
    twice a day 
    clothes lightly folded 
    on pillows
    his touch
    like a thousand silent breezes
    surprisingly ok
    
    I’m thinking about love of course
    and how it makes you feel
    when nothing is required
    but to receive 
    and live a little
    
    we check our tiaras 
    at our choice of cruise eatery
    consider delicious thoughts
    of crepes and creamery
    a menu without prices
    a magical ingredient
    
    book a massage 
    or a rest 
    on a hot stone bed
    take a tour round a port
    climb watch towers
    and look out
    
    river sampans drifting far below 
    say Japan Japan
    
    Japan in November 
    shows off its 
    chrysanthemums
    and children
    in blossom-soaked kimonos
    it’s Shichi Go San
    loving parents
    are praying for long life 
    and happiness
    we take photos
    
    in dappled 
    shrine courtyards
    priests rustle silently in sunshine
    and shadow
    4
    one evening 
    rugged-up on deck
    juggling pizza and icy wine
    the kaleidoscope that shoots 
    cosmic light 
    is back
    we’re at Osaka 
    and hard portside
    its famous ferris wheel 
    twice ship height
    is going off
    big-time
    
    glory plays and winks
    while we drink 
    and eat
    and chat
    
    catch the sound of one wheel clapping
    on cue
    ELO
    strikes up 
    on the deck’s big screen
    ‘Hello, can you hear me
    have you been alright?’
    coming down 
    the telephone line
    
    ‘Are you still the same? 
    don't you realize the things we did
    we did were all for real
    
    not a dream?
    I just can't believe
    they've all faded out’ 
    
    God has my full attention
    as Robin 
    books us
    tomorrow’s afternoon 
    of leisure
    I think of times past
    God and I working together
    recall a thousand happy glances
    5
    at ‘the sanctuary’ 
    a private attendant
    brings us soft wool blankets
    to soothe our loads of woe – ha 
    our noses sniff 
    a salty sky
    a place of sighs let out
    
    three courses 
    of afternoon tea
    biscuits 
    of the heavenly sort 
    can’t buy in ordinary shops 
    I think
    as I try one out
    
    then a trolley 
    wheeling sandwiches 
    and angel cakes galore
    each one pretty 
    never tasted before
    6
    as we cruise 
    to our final port
    a thousand waves bow sorrowfully
    I reach a chapter in my book
    my heart jumps
    He is speaking 
    in tsunami sentences
    ‘I want to answer 
    your prayers
    and I will 
    but first soak you 
    in my love’ 
    
    my riven heart
    hears something along this line 
    ‘I have ships
    sailing in living water
    powered for high seas
    you are both queens 
    with domains of love
    like these’
    
    weeks later
    the sky is
    dusted in white
    chrysanthemum pompoms
    ten thousand graces sallying
    white sails billowing
    
    I listen again and write
    love and healing
    for the nations
    sound the trumpets
    blow the horns
    prepare the way of the Lord’.

    end

    ©Tess Ashton
    Image Shutterstock

  • The loose end tree

    Tess Ashton 4 August 2018

    The loose end tree

    Over the river
    the ‘red’ horse
    is munching under the fleur de lis tree
    its scarlet coat deepening ever slightly
    into the most daring of pinks
    Makes this creature the prettiest
    thing anyone could hope to
    see on a hill by a river
    and the people going by on the trains might look up and see
    it and love it and exclaim in their hearts
    look there’s a horse with a beautiful red cover
    it looks fit for a queen.

    A hawthorn says son Ed
    is a magical tree
    and a dark brown horse draped in scarlet
    its elegance swirling
    capturing the branches
    of the brittle hawthorn
    and velvet of creature
    take me back to real time with a spiritual director
    and the loose end tree.

    She helped me draw my
    loose ends as a tree
    saw what was right in front
    of me
    first the question:
    where are you at?
    a crossroads I think
    in work and life
    ok right, draw that, came back.

    Saw a roundabout
    wide roads spark off
    north south east and west
    but was drawn to the centre
    a tree appeared
    drew my loose ends
    as branches
    spiralling off a solid trunk
    no leaves much yet.

    So where are you in the tree?
    high up busy
    doing what, she said?
    don’t know, I murmured
    but as I watched
    old leaves lit up
    like heavenly wonders
    I’d brushed them
    with a greening wand
    and I was a fairy princess.

    Hallelujah, two months later
    I’m part of an incredible moment
    in a suburb with its name
    on a tall tree-like sculpture.

    I’d had to find a new place
    for some free literacy classes
    found a
    church without walls
    welcoming the homeless
    and anyone smudged
    with poor health, drugs, or prison
    people whose sheen
    might welcome wonder dust.

    So I’m up and running
    still feeling my way
    throwing in love
    aim to brighten their senses
    stoke up each one’s callings
    holy spirit long swirling
    the air well prepared
    for any fresh movement
    Here the saints love God
    give space to the Spirit
    here greening is wanted
    high in loose end branches.

    ends

    ©Tess Ashton
    Image Holy Hawthorn, Glastonbury, Flickr

     

     

  • Tis the season

    Tess Ashton 15 December 2017

    Tis the season

    bird on a wire

    let me hear your song

    bird on a wire

    you can do no wrong

    for your singing is

    as love to me

    your tender trill

    thrills my ear and soul

     

    bird on a wire

    tell me where your voice

    comes from

    your plumes so soft

    that write upon my heart

    and i shall leap upon

    the horse dressed in red

    up on the goldy-green hill

    beyond the people

    waiting for the train

    so still

    and i will try to catch your maker

    before the sun comes up

    while he is cool and resting

     

    bird on a wire should i find him

    i will ask why do the birds

    sing so prettily to us

    and why do they

    talk of love

    tell me lover

    i shall say

    what it is love bears

    to play for us that love-torn

    sonnet

     

    i’ll tell him i have heard your trill

    that the flowers have appeared

    in our land

    that the winter has gone

    and the rains are over

    already i know the answer

    this is the season

    of the turtledove

    we are to arise

    and come away

    ©Tess Ashton

    Image Two turtle doves, Felipe Lopez, www.images.unsplash.com

     

     

     

  • The little anglican church

    Tess Ashton 28 July 2016

    The little anglican church

    In the nave
    two chairs with arms
    look at each other

    on the
    trail of window sills
    queen anne’s lace
    stencils
    sun and shadow

    above the altar
    a collage of local
    hills and houses
    church and local theatre
    train at the station

    the place I get off
    is where love
    and grief collide
    just a feeling
    inside

    when the Shepherd
    comes looking
    for me
    when His heart
    calls
    i’ll run
    the road
    of paradise
    won’t look
    behind
     

    ends

    ©Tess Ashton
    Image Marc Chagall (1887 – 1985)  Song of Songs IV

  • Light of snow falling

    Tess Ashton 18 June 2016

    for Olivia in Calgary

    We tumble out the basement door
    eyes dance
    warm and low from the downstairs porch
    to the distance

    the snow’s laid out on the pond
    on the banks and on the grasses
    on the circle of still houses
    and tender birches

    the sky is vast and blue
    ice drifting through

    you draw pink and orange spring flowers
    kneeling on the concrete slab
    I experiment with charcoal
    sit at the cold glass table

    efforts with banks and far houses 
    collapse in the brilliance of the light
    on the snowy paper

    the wire fence
    comes out largest
    suffocating the pale grasses
    and lonely bird-shelter
    in the branches

    leave you all for a tall retreat house
    in the Mission District
    Sisters flow in the Spirit
    by the Elbow River

    when you and mum visit there’s a miracle
    a snowshoe hare, cat and blackbird
    sit in a circle
    near the Peace sculpture

    I’d found a book on my bed
    St Francis
    waiting to be read

    held me tight in the days and nights
    ‘the things that happen in this old house’
    Sister said

    yesterday white chrysanthemums
    explosions on a local flower trolley
    His love like light of snow falling

    at church a young woman
    has painted the Lord 
    walking hand in hand with a girl
    the path is cool under high trees
    leaves on fire

    today your crisp white hapkido uniform
    has a belt of blazing orange
    you a fighter of the light

    For He will give His angels charge concerning you, to guard you in all your ways. They will bear you up in their hands, that you do not strike your foot against a stone. (Psalm 91: 11-12)

    ©Tess Ashton

     

  • Goodbye Edmonton with God and Eric Clapton

    Tess Ashton 18 February 2016

    Goodbye Edmonton with God and Eric Clapton

    Goodbye
    to quiet
    moments
    before and after
    visits to a
    bunch of
    attractions
    off the
    north saskatchewan
    river

    light shining through

    The zoo
    has a kea
    in its bird collection
    wings and eyes
    dead empty
    we’ve seen you dance
    pinching cakes
    at Arthurs Pass
    we tell it
    through
    weeping
    bars
    gently

    I’m at my
    breaking point
    my breaking point

    Goodbye
    to Remedy Café
    we loved your
    cakes
    and
    local organics
    your caffeine fixes
    ‘n blitzed up elixirs
    chai lattes
    stewed
    for three
    days and
    nights

    fill up my heart
    or tear it apart

    Goodbye to
    our daughter
    her Edmonton
    man’s
    back-yard
    silent
    ‘til eleven

    been waiting for
    your company

    the Metis Indian
    neighbours’
    invitation
    to “a fire”
    last Thursday
    still warming
    the air this
    Labour Monday
    and the squirrels
    are quiet

    you take my heart
    into everything
    you do

    In the
    dark belly of our
    basement quarters
    renovated
    through a
    sub-zero winter
    we’ve prayed
    in whispers
    summer bush
    fires

    let it rain
    rain rain

    the stumble and gurgle
    of the gas
    air conditioning
    a treat
    to the beat of
    what’s deep
    and active

    I’m with you my love

    From bed
    sent our smoke signals
    three stories out
    found a sky
    to rest on
    my toothache
    settled

    knock knock
    knockin’
    on heaven’s door

    God said
    ‘I have
    Everything sorted’
    felt the download
    like an upload
    God’s great sense
    of fun-load

    I said
    you put my heart
    on overload

    Am sure He said

    I feel wonderful
    tonight

    Drove south
    found a field
    with prairie fever
    small otter-e heads
    popping
    up all over
    amazing
    tunnel
    architecture

    getting too dark
    to see

    From the car
    the plains
    go nowhere
    much
    between grey pylons
    under pounce
    of crash and boom
    clouds
    lately bush fire yellow
    or a red sun

    you don’t realise
    how much
    I love
    You

    Feels like
    we’re drifters
    our voices
    lost in prairie
    time and distance
    further than
    imagination
    goes

    I must be strong
    and carry
    on

    Thanks
    Mr Clapton
    we’re singing
    Alberta Alberta

    in all your
    wandering
    places
    in all your
    wondering
    tones

    ©Tess Ashton
    Image  Eric Clapton, Leonid Afrema with kind permission

  • Christmas Baby

    Tess Ashton 26 December 2015

    Christmas Baby

     

    try and describe the softest thing
    a tree’s sheen of green
    in spring
    a cloud drifting - only blue behind –
    the breath of a new baby
    in a mother’s heart
    words very
    very hard to find

    i think of the poet - Sam -
    who might as well have said
    babies trees clouds
    when he was talking about
    poems
    said poems aren’t like anything else
    ‘just as Christ wasn’t like
    Moses or John or anyone
    a poem is itself
    it’s all in there
    not anywhere else’

    another poet – Gerard -
    said the word
    that aches most
    from the softest things
    like babies
    trees and clouds
    is love

    Zoe Bonnie is a poem
    sailing in a cloud
    has to be top of the tree
    for Natalie
    and all who love her
    whether
    on earth
    or
    in heaven

    ©Tess Ashton

    written for Natalie and Zoe Bonnie, named after Granma Bonnie

    Image  Zoe Bonnie by kind permission of her family

  • earth's dreamers

    Tess Ashton 30 November 2015

    earth's dreamers

     

    sunless forests
    cut their losses
    that’s them
    flouncing in pearl-soft
    cotton

    lonely fields
    take a chance
    race off to the arms
    of clear blue heavens

    parched deserts
    switch the light
    cool and sparkle in
    silhouette night

    coral losing ground
    rides the wave
    of rainbow life

    sky therapy
    appeals to
    all earth’s dreamers

    I shoot
    the breeze
    with let go trees
    sip rainbow hues
    laced with
    starry gold

    join fields
    running blue
    gentle beasts
    flying through

    ©Tess Ashton

    Image: www.flickr.com

  • Advertisement for Uber, The Thinker, my sister and daughter and all things about love in Philadelphia

    Tess Ashton 15 October 2015

    Advertisement for Uber, The Thinker, my sister and daughter and all things about love in Philadelphia

    My loving sister who lives

    in Philadelphia
    first city of America
                city of a thousand trees and
    slim pretty streets
    where window boxes
    spill with flowers and 4th of July flags
    and people gather on pavement chairs
    tipped out tight doorways
    over high front stairs
    terrace-house knees negotiating
    close as the tree limbs
    colonnading
    speak brotherly love
    drink sisterly wines
    on hot Friday nights

                 My sister I was saying
    has the Uber app
    on her phone
    we used it twice when we visited
    right now I’m started…
    she Uber’d
    to get us round the corner
    me, husband Lloyd and grandson Caspar
    from Parkway Apartments
    art deco with a hint of gothic flair
    in Logan Square
    to terrace house digs
    in sweet Meredith
    heart of the arts quarter
    where Rocky at the
    steps of the Philadelphia
    Museum of Art
    is hot property
    the city’s latest addition
    to its statue collection

                 as I was saying
    enlivened by our
    exciting reunion with
    our daughter Alex
    and granddaughter Olivia
    down from Canada
    on that first evening at my sister’s
    we and Caspar wafted one with the lift
    that once carried
    education board people
    out to the marble edge of Winter St
    and elegant
    Pennsylvania
    Avenue
    where classical trees
    loftily mind
    the people below who
    stop by
    Rodin’s ‘The Thinker’
    and those mesmerised
    by the art at the Barnes Foundation
    who come out bearing
    Cezanne apple and pear
    candle fruit mementos
    that make fools
    of customs officers at airports  – ha!
    and bring postcards of Matisse
    and Picasso riches home
    for mantel pieces

                  High classical trees that cool
    people who visit
    the science museum
    of Benjamin Franklin
    in the summer season
    and who loll on the grass
    with homeless people
    like lionesses
    while grand children
    play on the swans and
    the giant First Nation people
    at Logan Circle

                  but re my sister and Uber
    our light toes had barely
    reached the pavement
    our hearts one
    with the hot American night
    when our Uber appeared
    a black Chevy sculpture
    a mere click of the fingers
    from there to here
    Denzel Washington quipped hubby later
    was the driver
    tall as a Pennsylvania night
    and lustrous as a god
    we were fated to be in possession of
    for a moment
    gave reason
    to later muse
    on the panoply of
    guiding trees
    the dark bronze sculpture
    in Rodin’s Gallery garden
    we would pass several times
    on our walk to Wholefoods
    organic supermarket
    where they employ disabled people
    and yellow shopping bags have LOVE
    in big letters
    a take on
    the famous Love sculpture in the Love Park
    on the JFK Boulevard
    by the fountain where the kids
    all rush and play
    in the heat of July holidays

                  It was ‘The Thinker’
    got me humming
    through the week
    that came
    the plaque explained
    on close inspection
    is the top small figure
    created for
    a sculpture
    of Dante’s
    ‘The Gates Of Hell’
    then the artist
    enlarged his expression
    to personify all inspiration
    behind creative thought
    an answer to my old question
    about what’s behind all things poetic
    bizarre this driver
    for a moment
    personified the revelation
    that love is in motion
    here in Philadelphia

                 In the back of his Chevvy
    our stuff and my family
    tumbled about the leather excitedly
    from the front
    I marveled the way
    of our limo-trained driver
    the pay-later scheme
    completed the golden mile
    next day
    we returned from being out
    to find Caspar’s
    red running shoes
    glowing on the doorstep
    like Cinder’s slippers
    dropped in the getaway
    returned by Uber
    a surprising
    thing for a taxi driver

                  But Uber is like no other
    fits well in the city of brothers
    where Penn the Father
    was known to interpret
    St Paul’s words of freedom
    ‘Love is above all;
    and when it prevails in us all,
    we shall all be lovely,
    and in love with God and one with another’
    hail to Philadelphia’s far walking father
    and my sister, daughter, grand daughter
    husband, and grandson
    and the Uber driver and trees and art
    in Pennsylvania

    ©Tess Ashton

    Image Philadelphia Love Statue  www.philly.com

    Side note:
    America’s first city named by
    its far-seeing owner
    William Penn who dreamed it all
    devotee of St Paul
    America’s first Quaker
    set the hopeful standard
    for extravagant love
    his city plan and libertarian principles
    inspired
    Thomas Jefferson, Ben Franklin
    the American constitution
    invited British and European persecuted
    Hugenots, Mennonites
    Amish, Catholics, Lutherans and Jews
    in time art lovers with Penn’s Oxford
    training
    people with money
    got persuaded
    made bronze statues of mothers and fathers
    heros and heroines
    planted them like muses on
    the ridiculously clever
    town planner’s
    broad plazas

     

  • Swing Trilogy

    Tess Ashton 27 July 2015

    Swing Trilogy

    Jives

    I wake to your jiving
    trees
    you’re wired
    hot as rock guitars
    rollicking with the fences
    to the top bush line

    and hills
    you play a mean base
    your grasses ripple
    lit gold
    young flames shooting
    electric rain

    and above
    the clouds raked into
    icing swirls

    this feast of joy
    is working
    hills and clouds and trees
    like me
    are celebrating

    Dufy’s holiday dazzle

    you’re a
    minstrel of joy
    Raoul
    when I read that description
    I knew
    what I knew
    was true
    your Eiffel towers
    your yachts
    and hotels
    erupting in a mass of
    couldn’t care less
    clouds
    have work to do
    point to
    the dazzle of holidays
    and
    entrenched happiness

    Van Gogh go go

    it’s a Van Gogh go go
    breaking the heart
    of everything apart
    hill and tree and clouds
    are rocking
    while the wind
    of a Dufy summer
    keeps everything
    breezy and
    happily together

    ©Tess Ashton
    Image Two dancers 1938, Henri Matisse

     

  • Winter solstice song

    Tess Ashton 10 July 2015

    Winter solstice song

     

    Anyone want to do something different?
    Instead of job hunt
    Read a poem?
    And reflect on it?

    Heads nod
    Eyes wide
    What’s she on about?
    Go to the tried and true
    Google sam hunt
    Winter solstice song comes up
    Print off
    Hand out a copy to
    Each one willing
    To be captive to
    A surprise
    A word so like sunrise

    To begin I attempt
    To explain
    The nature of words
    By asking them
    What do they think
    Words are?
    No one says weapons
    That’s a good start

    I help by saying
    Words are potent
    Units of memory
    That
    Hold different
    Images and meaning
    For each of us

    For example
    If I say the colour red
    What do we each see?
    Round the room
    It’s a flag
    Sunrise
    A highlighter pen
    Just red

    The exercise is to
    Listen to the reading
    A couple of times
    And underline the words and
    Phrases that
    Stand out or speak a little more loudly
    Than the others

    …‘But it is 
    the year's shortest day
    when anything can happen,
    miracles 'not a problem'.

    The sun five minutes with us
    came and left with a kiss.
    We believe in miracles. That, love,
    is all we have.’

    The work of poetry
    Is to find the message of hope in the poem
    I say brightly

    So everybody
    Take the word that’s calling you
    Now write about it
    What has it got to say
    To you today?

    It was the words
    Winter solstice
    That must have caught Sam’s heart
    When he sat to write
    And the ones that
    Caught mine
    For the 50th time?

    ‘miracles 'not a problem'.

    end

    ©Tess Ashton
    Image Winter Solstice Wendy L. Wilkerson

     

  • The Pentecostal lady apostle from Brisbane

    Tess Ashton 7 June 2015

    The Pentecostal lady apostle from Brisbane

    The pentecostal lady apostle
    from Brisbane
    heard recently
    at a women’s conference
    had a dream
    Aunty came to visit
    after a bit
    announced
    was leaving for home
    back over a perilously rising
    river

    You can’t go now aunty
    you’ll drown…
    but Aunt Hope
    was determined
    and quickly made off
    toward the gushing stream

    The apostle tried her best to stop
    the worst from happening
    but fast as a firebrand
    the old lady
    threw herself
    Into the swirling foam

    come back Aunt Hope
    come back
    come back Hope
    Hope
    come back
    Hoooope
    cooome baaaack

    but now Aunt Hope
    was being washed away
    like limp tinder
    until her plucky foot struck a sandbank
    and held her fast

    then the apostle
    plunged forth
    and believing with all her heart
    reached out and
    grabbed Aunt Hope’s hand
    she pulled and pulled
    and pulled until
    the two lay gasping
    on the grass

    Oh said Aunt Hope
    I’m going to come
    and live with you
    sleep with you
    in your double bed
    in your motel home
    never leave you
    Ok thought the apostle
    I’ll cope

    It was a dream remember

    Pushing her luck Aunt Hope said
    but I’ll have to bring
    my friend with me
    and the apostle thought
    that’ll be a squeeze

    but ok
    the friend can have
    the little annexe
    off the main bedroom
    there’s a bed
    pretty messy
    lots of junk on it

    so the friend arrived
    and had a look and said
    oh no
    I’m not sleeping there
    I’m sleeping in the double bed
    with you and Hope
    where you and Hope are
    I’ve gotta be
    said Aunt Faith

    And that’s the story of how
    the pentecostal apostle
    from Brisbane
    got hope back
    and once she got hope back then
    faith moved back too

    soon it was all

    moving mountains
    from here
    to there
    faith stuff
    true evidence
    of hope’s return

    ©Tess Ashton
    Image  www.pinterest.com

  • new positivity buzz

    Tess Ashton 31 May 2015

    new positivity buzz

     

    I got my hair cut
    On Saturday
    felt I had a winner
    as I peered,
    younger,
    in the salon mirror

    Strange how this hairdresser
    put me
    on another level
    my husband kept looking at me
    appreciatively later

    Wow 15 years
    smashed
    said a workmate
    on Monday

    My spiritual director
    found me lighter
    on Tuesday

    It’s my positivity theology
    I explained
    I cut off the dead wood:
    my hair’s
    a symbol of that

    I’m experimenting
    with happiness
    joy
    and optimism
    am on the lookout
    for coins in the mouths
    of fishes

    like the feel
    of the breeze
    round my neck as I worship
    it’s a wind blowing
    and kind of
    delicious

    Now the
    angels all praising
    and the power
    of the Spirit
    are free to attend
    to all
    my good wishes

    it’s Pentecost time
    I’m playing
    with fire
    standing right
    in the way
    of all heaven’s
    chances

    To start with some
    negative ghosts
    hanging round
    kicked up –
    shoved off
    once they knew
    I meant business

    Once I’d staked out my ground

    ©Tess Ashton
    Image: Evening Breeze, Henri-Edmond Cross 1894

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

  • Three stanzas for Christchurch

    Tess Ashton 15 May 2015

    Three stanzas for Christchurch

    Three stanzas for Christchurch  

    (taken from two larger poems written towards the end of 2009
    and before the earthquakes of 2010 and 2011)

    Christchurch Girls’ High School girls by the Avon in 1968

    we danced
    through hagley park
    from tennis court to school
    girls falling

    like amazonians
    to tiny avon’s charms
    threw jungle calls round weeping trees
    swung ropes that rang the bells

    the dream of swan and stream
    had us in its spell
    our phys-ed teacher lingered
    let the ballet play

    deep limey banks
    stalled the call
    to wade the sparkling road
    chucked the ball mid-stream instead

    skimmed toward glimmers
    of light ahead
    recollection, refraction
    threw it back 40 years on

    close by, afternoon-empty
    classrooms breathed
    greek guardians hovered
    between school and pond

    layers of living words
    whirling adrift of books
    girls limbering-up
    licks of river green that summer

    red and orange flames late autumn

     

    The fire - Christchurch Cathedral

    When I saw the strange flares yesterday
    in a cheap African wood-cut
    black peasants swirling with sky-borne water pots
    long-swung arms welcoming the desert

    the rhythm of first nation people
    already warring in my gut
    a message going out in
    a drum-beating time smouldering
    the ridge-line
    of me

    I’d been thinking of
    Christchurch Cathedral
    a catacomb for flights
    round mystery’s realms
    where knees

    tender and grimacing on stable straw     
    soften the ancient mats
    temper souls
    then it seemed the flames licked up          

    the starry cathedral sky
    scattered sparks of desert sand
    merged into an orange molten hand
    fingers coloured the gleaming night

    Spirit madly at work
    painting the whole town red                      
    living light thrown in swatches round                     
    the grey billowy stone

    then the out-breath
    of the diamond show    
    a freely wandering sky
    no slim pointing spire                    

    or light-daubed dark stone            
    instead scorching searching eyes
    reached from the plain of rubble
    and gazed upon the wide-arcing blue

    those who hadn’t knelt
    the prism floors too

     

    The River Avon

    a city centre was held captive by a quiet dream
    a river that rarely overflowed
    so deep its parent banks
    burnt a tedious hole in the heart of a peninsula

    dreams so stagnant
    caught without a tide
    yet time on its side to break out on the left and the right
    for a fountain to break the well’s deep dark

    to shock the stream
    move it to the wide windy ocean
    the resonant fire banked up in me
    could be this fountain ready to burst

    to scourge the plains
    the rising spread of daffodils
    the centuries’ old signal along the banks
    fragrant trumpets calling the tune

    and after the blaze the azure sky will turn
    the green shadows of the stream
    into a reflection
    of blue  of blue   of blue

    in christchurch where the river glows
    and sparkles tolling like child bells
    between high parent banks
    like a well forgotten

    then losing its place
    its moorings
    runs away carving its own sweet path
    the worry of a songbird

    created in its wake
    toward its true home
    the boatsheds  the tearooms  the botanic gardens
    the coalescent riverside offices and pearlescent stately city homes

    green backyards that run to the edge of near drowning
    my sister raked safely in to port
    the family lawn
    witnessed from a low clerestory window
    through which children peep

    when they sink beneath the tide
    to flow within the deep.

    ends

    ©Tess Ashton

    Image Window, Annette Woodford www.annettewoodford.wordpress.com

  • Hill and tree poems

    Tess Ashton 5 May 2015

    Hill and  tree poems

    i
    A church and a bell

    I’ve seen a tree on a hill
    (with a church and a bell)
    out my window
    for 17 years now
    alone without leaves
    I now realize
    must be dead
    from this side of the river
    who knows
    yet says
    ‘I stand for all
    things set apart
    by those with an eye
    for things placed
    on a hill
    or a table
    for contemplation’
    and I realize
    it’s a dead tree talking
    warming the living
    saying love
    is complete
    in all things
    given

    ii
    Hunger

    when i look at the
    tree on the hill
    with the church and the bell
    and the river in front
    and the bush
    on the edge
    of cloud-touched tracks
    the slow-moving rhythm
    of the sky above
    a poem no less
    with a train
    running through

    but what is a poem
    but truth coming forth
    like Heidegger’s
    butterfly
    or a moment
    of leaving from
    a railway station

    the crying most often
    i come to the
    hill sounds the call
    for children
    hungry and dying
    how best to help
    where are
    they exactly?

    a feeling below
    of small hollow boats
    on long empty rivers
    forgotten then
    sailing then lifting
    on rainbows
    children and babies
    no fanfare
    or tombstones

    iii
    Yang Yang and the view from the back

    Above the tree on the hill there’s a Catholic
    church with woods backed up facing
    us  Off the flat ‘burb road from
    the cul de sac entry
    there’s a school
    attached
    too I
    haven’t

    seen lately
    What the kids don’t
    know there’s a hill stretching
    downwards to a pink-blue river sky in its
    mirror  On the back of the hill the sun comes
    early shifting things in the dark with
    light across pasture  Think often
    of ‘yi yi: a one and a two

    a movie that speaks
    of forgotten
    views  A boy
    with his camera
    clicks heads from the
    back  says we all need help
    with the tracks we’re immune to 
    On Sunday went swimming in singing and

    sermon and movie and river and light on hill
    gliding  caught the rear view from
    Colossians too  the wind of
    the Spirit showed some-
    thing odd though
    a cloud of my
    making
    jiggled a warning

    Shamed  to name sins
    that cut into focus   Today
    stroked the back of a neck of a loved
    one felt the scar where hearing was taken
    forever  Clever Yang Yang to spot a least thought about angle  

    iv
    The days and nights of Manapau St

    blue
    pink blue
    blue orange
    orange black
    black black

    sets the red station light
    moon of the train
    the bridge and town
    alight in the distance
    clack clack

    as the train goes by
    with the river
    and clouds
    who’d move?
    relax relax

    you might touch God
    it’s paradise
    here
    in the cosy ‘burb
    most times most times

    and the hills over there
    and the river
    in front
    and lights and city
    in tiny perspective
    this place this place

    here clouds
    and people
    stride together
    the old troll bridge
    to catch the train
    to town to town

    past our verandah
    meander the station
    the edge of the
    platform
    the way of the journey
    so near so near

    Meadowbank kids
    perch in formation
    itching til airborne
    bedrooms like hurricanes
    ducks going somewhere
    lift off lift off

    by tides and timetables
    hearts spin back
    to days and nights
    of pink and blue
    and orange and black
    think back think back

    v
    Fool on the hill

    outa that scene
    for good
    rear view
    mirror
    tells a story
    giant sun
    proclaiming
    glory
    not disaster
    on the hill

    home alone
    rays bear down
    deepest
    heaven
    four years
    rot
    dug out
    in twenty
    minutes

    nervy dream
    old scene
    naked
    In the elevator
    heading for
    the upper
    floor
    be still
    hints
    St Francis

    next day
    wander to
    garden centre
    a rose
    my name
    chosen for
    spring promotion
    heart felt
    description
    swirl of love
    birthday gift
    from heavenly
    Father

    ©Tess Ashton

    Image  The Slain Tree  Eric Lee-Johnson c. 1945, Auckland, New Zealand